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Friday, April 16th, 2010
9:39 am - С форума НПА

malasha


Уважаемые участники форума! Проблема, связанная с юридическим моментом начала терапии лиц, стационированных в психиатрическое учреждение в недобровольном порядке, носит архиважный характер и достаточно актуальна. Многие представители психиатрического сообщества, не обладая достаточным уровнем правосознания и правовой культуры, обходят эту проблему стороной.
Как правило, и практика это подтверждает, медицинское вмешательство в форме введения лекарственных средств в организм лица, недобровольно госпитализированного в психиатрический стационар, начинается сразу же после водворения вас в палату, но перед этим вам в настойчивой форме медработник будет предлагать дать письменное согласие на лечение.
Как правило, ваш отказ дать письменное согласие на лечение, не способен повлечь за собой отказ медперсонала от медицинского вмешательства по отношению к вам.
Однако ваша юридическая грамотность может “пощекотать нервы” медперсоналу, и, возможно, в журнале наблюдений и вашей и/б появятся строки о том, что у вас бред правдоискательства или бред сутяжничества.
Итак, вас недобровольно госпитализировали. Вы в палате. Вам непривычно от специфического запаха (смесь мочи, испражнений, хлорки…). Но через весьма небольшой промежуток времени этот запах станет для вас родным.
Медсестра предлагает вам успокоительный укольчик. В психиатрический стационар вы поступили ночью. Ночью должны все спать. Дежурство тоже должно быть спокойным, без эксцессов, поэтому медсестру понять можно чисто обывательски. Сначала медсестра предлагает, а затем начинает настаивать на укольчике.
Вы всё еще говорите “нет”? Ну что же, возможно, в дверном проеме в скором времени замаячит фигура санитара. Будете сопротивляться? Тем хуже для вас, ибо сопротивление есть форма агрессии, а это прямой путь к применению аминазина. Аминазин вытеснил смирительные рубашки из психиатрических стационаров.
Медсестры, работающие в психиатрическом стационаре, любое лекарство называют “витамином”. Может быть, потому что слово витамин как-то успокоительно действует на психику душевнобольных? Однако с юридической точки зрения такие действия медсестер представляют собой введение в заблуждение пациентов относительно названия и свойств препарата. Аминазин медсестры, например, называют витамином А.
Итак, вы только что поступили в палату и вам предлагают укол. Вправе ли вы отказаться, если вас недобровольно госпитализировали?

(Be a schizo)

Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
4:04 am - Is anyone out there?

thowellcintron
This community seems dead, idle for months,.. surely there has to be more of us out there, more of us that can share our experiences, reach out for help, or just talk about our condition, what it's done to us, what it means, how we cope.

x-posted.

(Be a schizo)

Saturday, November 7th, 2009
12:54 am - NIGHT TRAIN TO VENICE (TRAIN TO HELL)

malasha
Тот фильм, о котором я думала, что он называется "Карнавал в Венеции", оказывается называется "НОЧНОЙ ПОЕЗД В ВЕНЕЦИЮ"
Официальное название: "ПОЕЗД В АД"

Триллер/Детектив
Германия, 1993
Режиссер: Тони Хиртрайтер /Tony Hirtreiter/, Карло У. Куинтерио /Carlo U. Quinterio/

"Самая старая и сильная эмоция, известная человеку, - это страх, а самым старым и сильным страхом является страх перед неизвестным". Этой теме, похоже, и посвящается этой жутковатый, авангардистский фильм с элементами сюрреализма. Главный герой, журналист Хью Грэнт, отправляется ночным поездом в Венецию на сборище нацистов, чтобы получить материал о современных фашистах. Вместе с ним на поезде оказываются разные люди: балерина, женщина с дочерью, певец-трансвестит и странный, мрачный человек в черном Малколм Макдауэлл, как нельзя лучше подходящий для этой роли. На поезд также проникают молодые подонки-фашисты, терроризирующие пассажиров и выкинувшие проводника в окно. Производит впечатление и само сборище этих выродков. Действие перемежается кадрами из прошлого, снами или воспоминаниями, ассоциирующимися со страхом, необъяснимым и неотвязным. Картину явно стоит посмотреть, но это зрелище не для детей. (Иванов М.)


Но это фильм не о фашистах. Фашисты здесь используются как аллегория.

(Be a schizo)

Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
3:56 pm - How did you get diagnosed???
night_cath Hey, I'm new here...

Well, it will seem strange to you, but anyway.

I can relate SO MUCH on all the stuff said here. I can relate so much on these symptoms of schizophrenia.

But the thing is, I never ever got a diagnosis. I tried everything. Psychologists, psychiatrists, acupuncture, whatever, I've been to 2 different mental hospitals, several times... My mother sent me to a mental hospital when I was 4, about 10 times or maybe more. And I got back when I was 16.
I've had lots symptoms, and so much more. I read all your posts and thought, Wow, finally I'm not alone. I can relate to all this.

I've been living with all this for ages, without any diagnosis nor help. I'm doing sort of self-therapy on my own (because I have no help), trying to keep control, trying to find ways... But it's always, always there.
I can't work or almost not, I can't do much. It's a jail inside of my head I guess.

How did you guys get diagnosed???

At one point, the only goal I had in life was to get a diagnosis, to get help. But I sort of forgot about this unrealistic dream of mine.

Nobody of the specialists seem to understand or want to help: they either find it to be too big of a problem, they're not 'specialized' in it as they say, they refer me to the wrong persons, they don't listen, or they laugh at me (yes, it happened!!).

So how did you guys get diagnosed?!?

Also, if I ever get a diagnosis, I guess it'll mean that I'll be prescribed medication. I'm not convinced that pills will work and are the solution. So in another way, I don't want to get diagnosed for this reason. I don't want to have doctors testing drugs on me and see which ones work best, and meanwhile I'm all totally nonfunctional, even worse than before. I'd feel like a laboratory rat being tested.

OK send your comments and thanks in advance for your precious advice!

current mood: confused

(5 Schizos | Be a schizo)

Sunday, July 10th, 2005
12:27 am - The other side of madness.
joomusjitterbox I wrote a story especially dedicated to you out there:

The other side of madnessCollapse )
Thanks for listening, kings and queens.

(Be a schizo)

Wednesday, July 6th, 2005
11:14 pm

over
Is there any solution to any mental illness that you can't handle?

(1 Schizo | Be a schizo)

Wednesday, June 29th, 2005
2:27 pm - word

hedder_42
letterCollapse )

(2 Schizos | Be a schizo)

Thursday, March 10th, 2005
12:52 pm - Intro post...

verdammtmadchen
I'm 20 years old and I have schizophrenia on both sides of my family. Lately (in the past year or two) I have had an undying fear of becoming schizophrenic. My mother works in a mental hospital she deals with these people everyday, so I hear many horrifying stories. My uncle set himself on fire, strangled his mother and stabbed a psychiatrist (at the same clinic where I go to for therapy), an aunt on the other side of my family played Russian roulette with her children. I believe my fear to be a rational one. I certainly have a long history of mental illness. I've had depression on and off since I was 5 years old. When I was twelve I went a year without speaking to anyone followed by years of cutting and overdosing on pills just to make myself sick. Throughout highschool, these habits got worse and I went a year or two without physical contact because it just made me feel insecure. I've since stopped harming myself completely (a sharp turn away from my daily and sometimes hourly self-inflicting behavior). I have more recently been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, which I find peculiar because it is not in my family anywhere. I am on Seroquel and Celexa, which together I believe are the first medications to really have any positive effect on me. I've recently gone through psychological testing. The first test, the WAIS test, I was told showed that I was extremely intelligent. (This was right after I took the test last week, I don't have the detailed results just yet). Just last night I went through the infamous inkblot test, where I had usually seen lots of bats, butterflies and clowns. However, last night the woman testing me commented saying that my answers where like those of a psychotic. She was baffled by this because though I came off as very together and intelligent, my thought process was obviously abstract.
I don't hear voices, or see things that are not there. Whether or not I see things differently than others would be impossible to prove. People have often asked me "what is it like being you?" They know there is something different about me, yet they believe that I am a very level-headed individual. I am most definitely withdrawn and I don't find much in common with myself and others. I've never in my life been in a relationship, and I'm not sure if this is a sign of some social issue or just a really good decision. (you can laugh here) Instead I fill my life with animals, because they are dependable, they cannot lie, and their love is unconditional as long as you keep feeding them.

To sum things up, I'm joining this community to hear about other's experiences and maybe get feedback. How does one know if they are not right [mentally]? I really do feel very afraid if my thought process changes at all, or if I suddenly see something in a way I never saw it before. Either I have to conquer this fear, or if there is something wrong with me, I have to identify it and take the necessary steps to control it.

Thank you for listening.

(7 Schizos | Be a schizo)

Sunday, March 6th, 2005
8:07 pm

effeteifrit
Hello again...

I have a question...primarily focused on those people who are on atypical antipsychotics and participate in a martial art or activity (like boxing) where they spar with a partner. Basically I'm thinking of starting to train in Ba Gua/Pa Kua (yeah, if you've been following me, first it was Kendo, then Iaido and Kendo, then Tae Kwon Do, then back to Aikido, then Ba Gua)...and after a certain level people start sparring.

Now, if I take Ba Gua I'm expecting to spar; if I spar I'm expecting to get hit in the head (among other places). What I'd like to know is how much this increases my chances of developing tardive dyskinesia (from brain trauma). My basic question: Is the risk of developing TD high enough so that I should consider a less violent martial art?

I'm on 5 mg of Zyprexa a day and 100 mg of Luvox.

Thanks...
H.

X-posting to schizofriends, schizo_support, schizosrus and my psychiatrist.

(Be a schizo)

Saturday, February 19th, 2005
11:40 pm - I really hate who I am right now

hedder_42
Yea, I was talking to a guy online, yea I know a guy online shouldn't make me hate myself, but he's not the only person who's made me feel this way. Well here's how it got me thinking sadly. I was talking to some random guy online, and he asked me to tell him something that not to many people know about me. So I started talking about all my brain problems, but not all at once, but it ended up me telling him I was a schizophrenic,depressed,OCD,ODD,compulsive liar, so then he goes "I don't think I can talk to you anymore" then he blocked me. So it got me thinking, how in the hell can I live my life witout people knowing I am a total nut job? Like am I sapposed to just keep it all in, and never tell anyone that there is anything wrong with me? I don't even know what my friends that I have now think about me, do they think I am a nut job? Well I know I AM but what do they think of me? It's just so hard. I really dun know what to do.

(2 Schizos | Be a schizo)

Thursday, September 9th, 2004
3:55 pm

poisonoak

Nebulous #3 (Not Otherwise Specified) is the tale of my mental illnesses, being diagnosed, getting on and off medication, learning to live with schizophrenia. It is 80 pages, quarter-sized, text-heavy, ribbon-bound. This is my 7th zine. Nebulous



The mattress was striped blue-white and stained with unidentifiable substances. On the bed there was no sheets but on the floor next to it, there was a mountain of blankets with coloured stuffed animals climbing to the peak. Underneath the bed was a singular red backpack, covered with buttons and patches proclaiming the radical platform of the absent owner. The bookcase stood at the end of the bed, stacked to the brim with zines and chat books of neo-beat poets that were born 50 years too late. The top of the bookcase was montaged with ropes, CD cases, and green fuzzy handcuffs (which weren't used for playing cops and robbers.)

Nebulous
To order, send anything (a zine, a mix, some artwork, handmade stuff, a notebook, a really cool button or beads, well-concealed cash, an EP, a spiffy earring, money order, check) equal to 2.50 USD to:

AnomaLily

2692 Madison Rd ste n1 PMB 220

Cincinnati, OH 45209

current mood: happy

(1 Schizo | Be a schizo)

Monday, August 2nd, 2004
11:10 pm

strangelisa
I'll say goodbye
But you'll be this symphony
Playing a sweet melody
Throughout the breadth of memory
Everyday
I'll carry you with me

The strength you gave me
The faith you knew
That gave me faith too
The strength you showed me
That made me see you

..............

I can't sleep
I want to sleep tonight
So I took some pills
They should kick in soon

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

"Want to hear the saddest thing in the world?"

Go ahead and try.

"She wants to hear the saddest thing in the world!!"



"The saddest thing in the world is only the saddest thing that's ever happened to you...so kick up the fire and watch it burn!! Cuz the saddest thing hasn't happened yet!!"

current mood: awake

(Be a schizo)

9:28 pm - hello for everyone here!

valerias
I´m new here and happy that find you , i´ve been suffering schizous and everything many years and just wishing all the good things and brave heart to everyone who shares this stuff with me or is been intrested about "us" ..and so on .

current mood: weird

(1 Schizo | Be a schizo)

Saturday, July 10th, 2004
4:21 am

strangelisa
If there were a shield
To which I'd place the world
It'd grow thicker through you
Like layers on a broken toenail

With white opaque light forming
Upon opaque white light
With shards of blue neon snaking through
Whispering in Ant
Playing a soft piano note
Sharp, acute sounds of tiny ants
All screaming
The light

Shattered, abstract words blow down the street
A path straight and paved
Cracked but not worn, but worn and not cracked
"The path 'tis twisted with overgrown, branching neurons"
Says an old Englishmen drinkin tea in a library
Like liver flukes writhing from the pale heads of the deceased
As they become solid trees lining the road
From woody root fading to fleshy torso embedded in Earth
Through the soil parasites infest
And bring back the dead
So they may talk to me again

Saggy, baggy under the eyes
The stereotype of this little girl is defined
Her device is beneath the eyes
With microchips generating the sympathy of Hope
And the World
Why do I speak in code?

Playin' piano on the keyboard
With a 5am tap-a-ap-rap
Of the tapping of letters
***Dreams in digital technicolor***

current mood: awake

(Be a schizo)

Friday, July 9th, 2004
1:44 pm

strangelisa
Hey there. I'm new, my name is Lisa, I'm 17, just graduated.

I don't feel like describing exactly in what ways I am sick, but I am. All of my life. It runs in my family, actually...my grandmother was institutionalized for most of her life.

The last few days I've been really coming to terms with the fact that my life will never be normal how much I try, so I just need to accept my condition and learn to live with it. Stupid them. They've been quiet for days straight now, just to fuck with me. Whenever I start to question them, they shut the hell up, and then when I stop thinking they're there and go back to thinking there's nothing wrong with me, they gain my trust and put me in psychosis. I have long periods of remission, but about 3 months of the year I'll relapse. It always starts with negative symptoms, and then the positive. I'm not much of a visual hallucinator, mostly auditory and some visual...only, it's strange. It's hard to seperate what's me and what's not, because they trick me. They form these monsters that I think are me, and because of it I've lived most of my life with extreme and life-threatening guilt. I'm sure most of you know the drill with the symps...strange hallcinations like thinking you're dying of AIDS for no reason, voices telling you shit.

For me it's hard to accept that it's not just me up there. I mean, it's been like this all my life, so I've always thought this is just how I think. Only after I finally opened up to one of my friends about some of the things I think did I realize that it isn't normal...and that "insecurities" shouldn't have minds of their own. They shouldn't make you stop eating for months at a time.

Damn, this quiet is so weird. It's so...blank...bland...weird. So plain and boring. It lets you focus a hell of a lot better, though. More on this later...I'm gonna enjoy this alone time, until they come back.

current mood: blank

(Be a schizo)

Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
11:07 am

thetwilight
hihi. i'm new.
my name is kristen, and my boyfriend is schizophrenic. i've been researching the disorder for awhile now, but i'm always left with questions. i believe he's type ii, and he's currently taking abilify. the abilify seems to help with the negative symptoms, but as for the positive symptoms, he still has them. has anyone been on two antipsychotics? i know he has, and they weren't too helpful, but maybe different antipsys could work? i'm not sure if this is a delusion of mine, but i'm determined to find a cure for schizophrenia before 2013. if you have any information that could help me out, i would greatly appreciate it! thanks.

(1 Schizo | Be a schizo)

Monday, March 29th, 2004
5:14 pm - First Post--A Schizoaffective Journey

slyfoot
[x-posted to several relevant communities]

Several years ago I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. There's a lot of theories about what causes it. Some think it is psychological, while others think it has to do with a chemical imbalance in the brain. It occurs to me that I've never taken the time to write out what it is like to have schizoaffective disorder. What follows is a series of experiences I have had with psychotic breaks. I'm not doing this to elicit sympathy or pity from anyone, but simply to put the experiences down so I have a record of them.

A Schizoaffective JourneyCollapse )

(18 Schizos | Be a schizo)

Sunday, March 7th, 2004
8:46 pm
joomusjitterbox Anybody hear get scented hallucinations? I don't really see or hear things, but I SMELL them. But like, I wonder if it's just that I smell people's spirits or something, I dunno. Like when I interact with certain people, even if just by talking to them on AIM, it smells a certain way. But whether or not they're hallucinations, does anybody else get these?

(10 Schizos | Be a schizo)

7:23 pm

m0noxide
hi! i'm corinne.
i have schizo affective d/o, i see things, hear things, & am delusional when i'm not on my meds.
i'm on 320 of geodon and have a lot of other medications.
i was abused as a kid.
i'm a cutter.
i live in texas.
and that's all you need to know [=
<3-corinne

current mood: awake

(3 Schizos | Be a schizo)

Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
6:24 pm

pbj4brkfst
i just wanted to say hello. i'm sarah, and i just started dating a boy with schizophrenia...i thought this community might help me understand what he goes through a little better.

(Be a schizo)

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