Heather (hedder_42) wrote in schizosrus,
Heather
hedder_42
schizosrus

I really hate who I am right now

Yea, I was talking to a guy online, yea I know a guy online shouldn't make me hate myself, but he's not the only person who's made me feel this way. Well here's how it got me thinking sadly. I was talking to some random guy online, and he asked me to tell him something that not to many people know about me. So I started talking about all my brain problems, but not all at once, but it ended up me telling him I was a schizophrenic,depressed,OCD,ODD,compulsive liar, so then he goes "I don't think I can talk to you anymore" then he blocked me. So it got me thinking, how in the hell can I live my life witout people knowing I am a total nut job? Like am I sapposed to just keep it all in, and never tell anyone that there is anything wrong with me? I don't even know what my friends that I have now think about me, do they think I am a nut job? Well I know I AM but what do they think of me? It's just so hard. I really dun know what to do.
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